yarrrgh

hmm..... I'm maybe starting to realize that there might be a chance for success at this job....... Today and yesterday I have been fine during the day but both days I have both woken up and gone to bed feeling about as scared and depressed as I ever get. Maybe I'm just becoming another regular caffeine-addicted adult who is Grumpy Gus till 9 am and Debbie Downer after 11:30, but I think the acid test for when I feel in control will be that I don't wake up hoping I've contracted a horrible disease that exempts me from teaching..... party on